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Adam & Eve / Forgive


Adam & Eve / Forgive (Excerpt from An American Millennial)


By Garrett Larson

Think of why we are saved (offered to be saved) and why God forgets sin once we seek forgiveness and turn from it. Sin is here. From Adam and Eve. It just is. It gets passed around very fast. God knows hurting people hurt people – and how we can be so easily influenced by things without even knowing what we are doing for a while. That’s why He just says acknowledge it and move on and forget about it because He has. How fascinating is that? Think of how incapable humans are of forgetting like that. We hate to forgive and then when we do we still think of old situations. Even if we are not holding them against someone. Or sometimes we say we forgive but do not mean it. Or maybe we do but we are reminded of what happened and then get upset all over again. What, what? What God. Follow His lead, please.

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Hurting Flowers


Hurting Flowers (Excerpt from An American Millennial)


By Garrett Larson

It’s almost like a supernatural distance that is there and real, but it goes unseen by the eye. Sometimes I don’t feel like talking to people. They don’t understand a lot of my process the past few years. I guess I don’t either. I know my goals – but that is sometimes all I know when I wake up. Knowing your goals is kind of a huge deal in and of itself. You have to keep in mind that you need to run your own race and there are different seasons of life and some days hurt and some days have flowers you did not expect. It can be hard because you find yourself just kind of sitting there and you feel alone. Maybe you are alone. We all know that you can sit in a room full of people and feel alone too. Even if it’s just your close friends and or family. You can feel that way for some reason. I really am being stripped down and I am not sure why, but I am. God is with me and I feel Him there or know He is there and sometimes He is distant. That is faith. Having faith that He is there, even though we do not see Him and always feel His presence. It’s hard though. The disciples were with Him around the clock during his ministry and witnessed miracles. They really did not need the type of faith we need now.

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Regret Burns

Regret Burns (Excerpt from An American Millennial)

July 2010

By Garrett Larson


Place your bets. Do it carefully. Maybe you were made for a mission and you just have 6 months to live and you can complete it or you can work your 9-5 and just get by, ever so quietly. There comes a point when you have to take the safe way, stay in the cove, or bet it all and make it happen. The funny thing is I believe the “safe” way is actually much harder and painful. Regret burns deep down and never really fades … also when you are doing what you were made to do it happens, it flows, you don’t check to see when your break is or think about what you are going to eat for an hour – you get in the zone and it flows. It can be very strenuous and trying and there are bad days for sure. But you know that you know that it’s happening and you aren’t in the cove anymore, you are right where you need to be. Know where you must be if you are going to get it done.

I always loved that part in Sister Act when the music was flowing and everyone loved it and they were involved with their community and giving out fruit. Hehe. And Whoopi turned an old car into a playset for kids haha. It was just nice to see people helping people.

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Introducing: An American Millennial

An American Millennial

Hey! Ok confession. I have been working on this certain project since 2010 ish… but I stopped – years ago. I had a block with it – I am not sure if it was fear or what have you. … SO. I am back at it. I will post excerpts and I hope to get it edited and together so it can be helpful! I will try to post dates of when I wrote each blurb/section. It still feels like a living breathing project that needs editing and attention. Just FYI 🙂
Thanks for your interest. 🙂


Millennials Are Unhealthy? Maybe So. … #2018

Millennials Are Unhealthy? Maybe So. … #2018

by Garrett Larson

I feel lethargic a lot, lol. So … btw … Americans (not just millennials lol) were the fattest ever in 2017. Seriously wtf – with all of the gyms, health info, tv shows… we just aren’t healthy – what is what? Stress, sadness, stuff. … I get it! 2017 was so f-ed up in so many ways – I wanna regroup and be positive about 2018! Why not?!

I wanna look and feel good – I hate that fat over my stomach that feels weird when I’m sitting in my car – ha. … maybe you know what I’m talking about, but hopefully you don’t. Hehe. Anyway, losing a few lbs is totally doable – so I am gonna do it. I am tired of being so lethargic, lol, and I think diet plays a big part.

So happy 2018! Today, I was like, what do I want my first meal of the year to be? First world problems, I know. But, I do wanna be healthy. I wanted mac and cheese and a side of bread :/ … from Panera. Then I thought of how it will mostly turn to fat, and kind of looks like fat ha; so I ordered their green goddess salad (so yum). Salad greens nourish and upgrades the body – I could just feel it processing in a really healthy way – where the starchy mac and cheese always feels like weight on the body and one more issue for my body to deal with – and a waste of money. … Our bodies have to deal with and process bad food, and it can easily become a long term problem. Oh, and on the salad I added kale (super healthy and not that bad when mixed in a salad) olives, and onions. … 🙂


I love these from the Bible!:

1 Timothy 4:8

8 For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

Revelation 14:12

12 This calls for patient endurance on the part of the people of God who keep his commands and remain faithful to Jesus.

Quick Tips/Goals:

Less alcohol. Happy hour means happy hour – not happy night or endless happy hour lol.

Caffeine has backfired on me – I get shaky and/or super tired, so … cutting back to weak tea and decaf coffee. However, be careful!! Decaf can still have about 20% caffeine in it!

Apple cider vinegar! It really is a miracle heath food!! I have about a dash of it in a morning green drink … and I use it on my skin for multiple reasons! Mix with purified water! 🙂

Amazing info about ACV!

ACV Info!

I want to read at least 30 min a day (would like it to be longer, but it’s small enough to feel doable, day after day).


When we see results it becomes so motivating and fun! Try it. Gotta run – heading to the gym 🙂

Love this song for motivations! What you waiting for?! 🙂



Blessings and Prayers!

garrett/baby g


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Millennials Are Bad at Everything? …

Millennials Are Bad at Everything? …

by Garrett Larson


Ha. No – But I am not sure how good we are at a lot of things – because of tech and related – so this includes friendships! What is going on?! (I know and believe we are great at a lot of things btw!)

What a lot of my millennial friends and I complain about: money/job shit/money lol/…. RELATIONSHIPS! How hard they are they?! ‘Adulting’ as a millennial is tough (lol that phrase is snappy, but oh well), but most adults agree it is difficult to make lasting new friendships as adults! Factor in tech and it really is tough! So… what to do?

Several times this year I have woken up, or randomly thought: what is what?! Like #2017, right? Ha. Dating – yes! But, I want to talk about friendships. People that are there for you and care about you/for you – and you really love and care about each other – and are not trying to get anything out of each other: #network. God, I hate networking and that term in general ha. So I have been thinking about what makes a good friend and how we know if it will last.

The Way I See My Friendships:

Trusted Friend = GOLDEN

We have built trust.

We put time into talking (in person/phone..).

We speak more often than not because we want to and make time to – even if just for a few minutes or silly texts off and on. 🙂

What is What Acquaintance = Yuck!

No one is doing much to see each other – no one seems to care – what is the point? Maybe you have lost interest or are just busy – but no one seems to care so the friendship is drying up/cooling down.

Past Friend

You still keep up once in a while – that’s OK – if it works for both of you. I am just more into having close, trusted friends and building those relationships … and letting people in and introducing others to others! Let people meet each other! It’s fun!


Friends Get Fired?!

Yes and no – ha, not to be dramatic, but if it is not working – say something! Be pleasant, but honesty is the best! And it works! Boom bam. If that does not work I put less energy into the relationship, lower expectations to zero (sad I know), and let it fizzle into what is what or, acquaintance land! Sad, but there are loving, amazing and wonderful friends out there! I met a recent bff while volunteering at an art museum! It was interesting and then great to have met a new loving friend!

So! Put yourself out there! Smile (I know I have a RBF) ha google it if you are thinking what is what. OK fine! It means resting bitch face – like you aren’t mad, but u sorta look mad when you are just being you, ha. … Step away from the tech shit! Seriously! Stop! I use it too – to guard myself from the world some too. How sad. Why not be friendly and meet people while out and about!

What not to do:

Who knows, lol – clingy is not pretty. Not being open and honest will fail the friendship. Secrets are not fun. Excluding is sad.

I love these from the Bible!:

Proverbs 18:24

24 One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

9 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: 10 If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up.

John 15:12-15

12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.

Quick Tip:

Give gifts! Even little silly things that cost a dollar. I like to give out #vintage lol cassettes from the 90s. Silly stuff that shows you care. 🙂 Always a pleaser.

So what doesn’t help if you feel lonely:

self-medicating, over medicating (lots of drinks/pills), overindulging in general. …


I remember God told me once to not have a poverty mindset – I took that as financial because of financial drama. Lol.

We should aim big and have people that treasure us, what to help us move forward with our goals, and want our advice about how they can too! No poverty mindset! Aim big!

Blessings and Prayers!

garrett/baby g 🙂


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Rock Bottom? Clearing the Deck? Seasons of Change? A Few Life Lessons from 2016/Early 2017

Rock bottom = not the worst place to be? Yep. I am sure everyone has felt like that, time to time. Even just one bad day can make you feel like you are there, even for a moment in time. I believe it is true – that it is not the worst place to be! You can become fearless because you ain’t got anything to lose! But – you have to realize that! Bam. Hehe.

Clearing the deck – God was like huh, uh – you need people around you that will encourage and inspire you to do your best work – and not push you to fit into this world. There is a big difference! No? People come and go. Why? Is it bad if they go?

Seasons of change and love/non-love – feeling a deep sense of love for people – even acquaintances or new contacts, in a way I never have before. Why? I think God opened my heart more, which can bring floods or joy … AND pain! Yep. But, I think He wants me to get a feel for how He sees people and how big His love is – even when people – me, you, all of us – can be uneasy to love – at least at times.

Feelings of disposable-ness – ha. What is that? Well … feeling disposable – I imagine that is how God feels, at times – with people that will not even look for him, for even a moment. You know, just to check into things. … :/ It is a bad feeling. 😦

Tears can be your friend. We always hide them, why? Tears are a built-in cleansing system, designed by God, to assist us. You know how you just feel better after you cry something out. Yep. Just release them/the issue you are upset about. You know. … 🙂

Can you/we be more loving? Can you lend a hand to someone you know? Let’s make this world not so ugly – shall we?


garrett/baby g

P.S. 🙂

Had to call in about a credit card today – the automated voice was like – “if you and your spouse would … ”

I’m like: screw u! What spouse?
Lmao 😎😎😎😒😒😒🙃🙃🙃😱😱😱😱

Let’s just make the best of drama? I texted some friends and made fun of myself. Sort of. 🙂 #love

Part Two! Millennials are Aging! Now What?? LOL.


Part One: Millennials Are Aging! Being 31 and Now What? … Thoughts and Revelations on Life So Far. … (Part I)

Where I Have Been (Various Facts/Thoughts/Observations) about being 31 LOL:

I am friends with many baby boomers (LOL), and people ten plus years older than me … I never expected that! It is great.

I have lived … um and all over the United States.

I lived in Airbnbs all over the United States. LOL. (AirBnB)

I am 32 and have no spouse and no kids

I don’t work a typical 8 to 5 right now.

I am self-employed and just kind of make things work.

I spent years in the specialty food industry.

I write books and make art. I am not an architect with a wife. LOL.

I work on my projects at cafes and coffee shops a lot!

I feel the need to share my faith and my deep love for people, while many times feeling mistreated or dismissed in general, for whatever reason.

I never expected to feel like I don’t fit in, well anywhere. I do know this is not a permanent home, and that helps a lot … knowing that. And I do not mean acting like fitting in, feeling like I or you do in a real way. You know. …

I am not comfortable a lot of times about a lot of things. BUT, faith not one of those things.

I feel confident in my faith, like stone strong bam. But in other things, not a lot.

Not always feeling financially secure and having to really pray and think about God and what He wants, and not making decisions with money being the first factor. Making it a lower or non-priority. Everyone has bills, sure. You know what I mean.

It was scary, everything. But it isn’t really anymore. God always has me.

I feel like my faith is all I really care about, but not really into the highly organized religion world.

I feel like so much is going on with current events and the world, and people are too busy making money or distracting themselves from unhappiness that they do not notice or care about real and important things.

I have a set of friends that are all over the country with so many different backgrounds. I love and appreciate you all!

I do not have endless “real” friends overall, and not just in one city.

I realize what it means to grow up, and that it is more about growing with God and not about finding some sort of mythical/perfect 8 to 5 job and having a life that looks “normal.”

I have actually tried online dating after swearing I never would. LOL.

I feel bought and sold often and realize that money is really the goal for many.

I’m learning that judging is a waste of time and not my job.

I feel love for people and strangers and new acquaintances from a place that feels pure and not self-serving.

I realize how imperfect I am and how much I need Jesus.

I know what aging feels like, and well, my back hurts! LOL.

Outro/Final Thoughts/Tips:

One thing is certain, join God’s side, and you are in for an amazing and wild ride. The Bible-based Jesus will not always FEEL safe, NO. Although we are with God and safe, ultimately. No, you will not always feel happy, but a wonderful and sometimes mysterious underlying joy persists, usually day to day.

No, you will not always know what to do. But knowing you want to work with God and help people find Him gives you a massive sense of fulfillment.

No, you will not always be loved or feel loved by people. We are in the world, NOT OF IT. Grow up. Life is tough y’all! I had to grow up, and I still am. BUT God helps us grow. It will be OK, OK? 🙂

No, we will not always “fear not.” Actually, when you put yourself out there for God and try to make a difference, you will probably be beaten up a lot by fear. We are human. It happens. Pray and “fear not.” It gets a lot easier.

Seek God, and He will reveal Himself more and more. SO TRUE. And so AMAZING! You have to do your own seeking, though! AND digging and learning! Please try it. It has made my life so remarkable and unreal. It is far from perfect and unreal in positive and negative ways but interesting, yes! Day to day I do not always think that. But looking back, looking at seeds being planted is truly amazing, knowing how God has changed me and how things do happen and can change.

And YES, it was all worth it!

Prayers and LOVE!

Baby g/garrett/Garrett Larson 🙂


Edited by: Marjorie Roberson  * Thank you 🙂


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Millennials Are Aging! Being 31 and Now What? … Thoughts and Revelations on Life So Far. … (Part I)


Millennials Are Aging! Being 31 and Now What? … Thoughts and Revelations on Life So Far. … (Part I)

by Garrett Larson

A scene from The Office has always stuck with me – a child asks Michael Scott: “Did you become who you wanted to be?” (“Take Your Daughter to Work Day,” Season Two) Ouch! That is a loaded question, right? In work, love, family, and society in general – wow! And ouch. Especially as a millennial, LOL, but yes! More on that later.

I have been wanting to finish this article for several months … and wanting to reboot my website … I figured I should finish it now since I am almost 32, and it is about being 31! 🙂  I feel like my life is nothing I expected it to be – for better or worse. But mostly for the better, in a wild west sort of way. … What I somewhat expected when I was like, I don’t know, eleven, so twenty years ago:

Architect dude

Married/family dude


Living in a large-ish city like San Diego


Realizations About Life and Related:

Realizing my generation (millennials) is so confused it is scary – it has been a strange time to come of age.

Realizing how much grace people really do have.

Realizing the kindness of strangers is real and remarkable!

Realizing that having just one true friend is priceless and wonderful. Laughter can be so pure.

Pain is real; heartache is real.

Realizing relationships and sexuality can be confusing and difficult. Especially these days! Guess what? God has us! It really is OK! We are all OK when we look to Him. Yes.

Realizing gray areas exist everywhere. You tell me?

Realizing a lot of people you thought would be there for you won’t be or aren’t.

Realizing you can do a whole lot with God on your side. And in unexpected ways!

Success does not and should not be seen in financial ways. Money is not bad, but it is a tool. Running down cash can get destructive. …

Realizing money and evil often go hand-in-hand. Blinding comes to mind. People being blinded by cash.

Realizing forgiveness is a real … realizing grace is amazing.

Realizing that when I turned 30, I just lost a whole lot of fear in that season, not on the birthday. It was sudden though.

Realizing I don’t have much interest in fitting into this world and that is amazing and so freeing.

Realizing problems and concerns can cause anxiety. There are not magic fixes for most issues. They need to be worked through, not covered and concealed by X, Y, or Z cover.

Realizing how many people have allowed their hearts to harden. (Don’t let that happen!)

Realizing what it is like to feel like a true outcast, a lot. And that is OK. God said it would happen so. … “If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.” (John 15:19 KJV)

Realizing I used to think I knew it all in high school. Now the more I study and learn, the more know how much I don’t know! Ha.

Realizing I do not fit into a typical box, and that is OK!

I have seen a lot and met many people from traveling around the country on my own and with my previous job. It was a lot. People are so vibrant and amazing though!

Life can be sort of strange and amazing, right?


Goals for 32:

Complain less. Appreciate more. I think God allows lemons because we need to learn to make lemonade, or just learn … something like that. … We have lessons to learn, and they turn out benefiting us somehow, someway. …

Take better care of myself – healthier diet and workout more (I had a bad ankle injury this spring) :/

Connect more – connect with people that want to accomplish great things and move forward in a positive way!

Goal set!

Continue to attempt to not let money make decisions for me. Pray first.

Focus on people and goals, not money. … AND yeah we need money – but there is a difference in it being the goal and being a tool! 🙂


Life now has taken my breath away … positively and negatively. In-flux in a lot of ways. LOL. I have been planting seeds, so that seems good. … Where do you find yourself in life? Are you going in the direction you wanted in the past or want to be going now? It is never too late to make changes!


Part two coming soon! It will include:

Where I Have Been (Various Facts/Thoughts)

Outro/Final Thoughts/Tips


 Thanks! Prayers and LOVE!

 Baby g/garrett/Garrett Larson 🙂


Edited by: Marjorie Roberson  * Thank you 🙂


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Garrett’s Screen Test @ The Dali Museum – No Words…

Oh this happened – at first I did not want to try it – but it was strange and fun and exciting all at once.

It is interesting see the face/facial features and expressions without sound. Somehow I had a glimpse into my own soul, in a way…


Garrett’s Screen Test Here

Dali Museum in FL, 2014.

About the exhibit:

Warhol: Art. Fame. Mortality.